
This morning started out pretty much like any other one, but unfortunately it ended with an argument with my husband. The final result was him going off to work a bit late and us both starting our days with frustration and resentment instead of peace and happiness. Thankfully we have email and text messages and all is well again:)
After our little argument about something quite meaningless, I have to admit that I felt just ugly, tired and yuuuckkkky. I kept telling myself to "get it together" and that it was just a
little argument. Well, this is true it was nothing major,
or was it? At that point I thankfully remembered some advice a good priest gave me quite awhile ago. This priest reminded me of something simple, that
all and any graces that God sends me can only be received through my complete and full cooperation in my vocation as wife. If I don't honor the vow I made to God and my husband at my marriage ceremony day in and day out, I literally begin to
block out graces that our Lord wants to shower upon me. Graces that I want and
need, especially in my vocation as a mother. Graces like patience, understanding, caring, love, fortitude, etc. etc.
Wow, when I meditate on this fact, that I can reject God and his gifts by having an uncharitable and selfish moment my husband, I understand that this
is something major, and it explains why, after a disagreement with my husband, I feel so "off." It becomes hard, hard work just to do the laundry or change a diaper.
I am constantly learning about myself in the context of my marriage, and am praying and hoping that in the future there will be less of
my own self in it and more "oneness" with God and my husband. One way that has recently helped me tremendously in this area of life has been reading
"Wife, Mother, and Mystic," and studying the life of
Blessed Anna-Maria Taigi. This book is so amazing yes, because it describes fantastic ecstasies and other saintly experiences (like prophesying the downfall and death of Napoleon) that this holy woman had, but what is even more inspiring to me is that it gives
concrete examples of what this wife and mother did on a daily basis to guide herself and her family on the path of perfection. For example, when she would leave or enter her home she would always say, "Praise be Jesus and Mary," and she always was sure to say the rosary daily with her family. She never let her spiritual duties interfere with her family's needs. (For example she would miss Mass or Benediction if someone was ill and she would stay home to care for them.) Her husband could also be quite "difficult," in his own temperament, but nevertheless she was always sweet, caring and obedient to him. There were times when her husband, Domenico, would come home angry and cranky from work and would yell at Blessed Anna and tell her she was a fool! Anna
always responded to her husband with a smile (even if he was in the wrong!) and would say, "Yes, you are right I am a fool!" What amazing humility! Hopefully someday I can at least be
something like her!
Triduum Prayer in Honor of Blessed Anna Maria Taigi(Pray one of the below prayers each day for three days)O Blessed Anna Maria Taigi, by that humble submission with which you believed in and adored the august mystery of One God in Three Persons, obtain for me from the Most Holy Trinity the favor which
I confidently implore.
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit,
As it was in the beginning, is now, and forever shall be,
World without end. - Amen
(repeat three times)* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Blessed Anna Maria Taigi, by the great love and tender pity with which you honored the mysteries in the life of Jesus, obtain for me from Him the favor which I earnestly implore.
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit,
As it was in the beginning, is now, and forever shall be,
World without end. - Amen
(repeat three times)* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
O Blessed Anna Maria Taigi, through your filial devotion to the Blessed Virgin, obtain for me from Her the favor which I humbly implore.
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit,
As it was in the beginning, is now, and forever shall be,
World without end. - Amen
(repeat three times) 